Forgive Me..

Another working week ahead before i take off to Athens...The thrill is mounting and i cant wait to see the girls...However, i wonder why i had inspiration for some rather gravitating thoughts....could be an idea to write them down and leave them behind...

As it stands;

I look around and i see you in every corner. How could you have possibly invaded my life, where i am only allowed in a minimal part of yours.

A lot of first times around you I agree. Did you however, ever think that it may also be my first time trying to stand in a place that is clearly not mine.

Yes i could be harsh when it comes to stating the reality of things, but isn't it harsh as it is to know that now or ever, my reality may never be yours.

Forgive me for i couldn't give you anything special on the day. I was told that whatever i had in mind had to come unplanned!!!

Then again, forgive me for i'm also not a strong believer in labeled occasions. It is the unlabeled that i anticipate for what it calls for.

For this one, It may have also been that i was thrown off by losing a chance to offer you the moon for a chance to watch the sun from the small frame of my room.

I may sound unfulfilled by the beauty of the simple things we own. Appreciation is never lost, but for me it is the stolen beauty of our counted moments that i firmly need to own.

I never thought I would one day be inconsiderate of the right time, but it also turns that at the right time i was perhaps never truly considered.

Beleive it or not, I catch myself at times refraining from speaking some of my deeper thoughts. Could you have known that it was never an attempt of dishonesty to you or even myself, but a simple, ironic yet true search of where that right moment could be found!

I know and understand that your hands are tied up in all this, and if i had known...Your hands wouldn't have had to be tied up at all..