Friday, June 13, 2008

Just let me know...

Something i came across in one of my old journals ( July 2003)....one of my earlier attempts in so called creative writing!!! thought an electronical/modified version of it could be of some value to me:

Yes Sure... Maybe sometime later?
Now tell me...does later mean somehow never??
or maybe is it your way of trying to be clever...
Tell me, is it in other words, time for you to be gone?
and maybe time for me to know that it is over and done...

Before you never see me fall apart and before I won't take anymore of this pain at heart...
and as i refuse to get caught up any longer in the this web of emotion...
Maybe you could just help me get a hold of this strange notion?

If you can't tell me what you want, then why not just let me know.....
Why did you decide to fail the test before you even take part??
Why am i punished for someone else's crime?
Or maybe is it that you didn't have enough time??

Could you be in so much hurt, in so much pain..
Could you possibly need a bit more time to regain what you could have lost deep inside...

If you only let me know...
For i am prepared to wait.. and no, neither of us would need to blame our loss on fate...
You know it is very possible for us to make our own...if only you are truly prepared to share and hold on ...
All you need to do is let me know... and i promise to love you, cherish you, and always care.

All I maybe need for now is just to know..
If i ever cross your thoughts..
If my name was even ever brought...

If you can no longer bear the pain...
and maybe if you ever want me to take the next plane...

If whatever we had is still there..
or has it simply became something to spare....

If you still remember how i smell..
or if at anytime you decide to move away from your shell..

You do also need to let me know ...
If to you, i am just a friend...
or is it worth sticking around till the end??

If you could ever be thinking of me right now...
or if you ever wonder if you could be with me somehow....

For all i care, you can even let me know...
If to you, it was just another game??
or maybe something for you to be of shame...

I can't help but reach to the conclusion that you are unsure of what you want me to know...
However, i'm in no doubt that you can just at least let me know...
Is it time for you to be gone?
or clearly about time for me to move on.....???

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

it so amazing what you wrote. and it`s show you are doing new chapter in your life by cleaning the dust from your life shelves.your life isn`t about making your life perfect and squeaky clean,but it is about knowing what you want for yourself and creating the best opportunities for it to happen.everything has a time and every time has a season.and i think your time to move for your new season has arrived.
God Bless you
T 4 ever

Mai said...

God bless you T
you are right, a new season has arrived, dust shall be wiped off, n shelves will have room for new delightful additions.
xx