SINFUL

Mai © Vagas, 2007

Emotional Awakening?

Why is it that every time i want to put some of my words down i realise that they are solely driven by a despaired thought....
I find it quite strange yet grateful that its at rock bottom my inspirations generally decide to skyrocket me up...
This surly can't be perceived as a negative point of view....
If disappointment is my only access to making things better then let it be..
Coming to think of it, disappointments seem to only be inflected when your inner reality has given up on you already... I'm NOT to give up...not again..not this time!
I believe that i will need to document this and perhaps this time remind myself that;
The Jigsaw pieces will all fit into one successful bigger picture one of these days, and until then all i need is to keep that up on the board, keep drawing my ever evolving map and be hopeful that life will continue to grant me all the room i need for my own personal growth...

Two weeks notice!

I believe i have two weeks..
Two weeks to make a difference,
Two weeks to ignite that overdue desired turnaround,
It just doesn't help when my thoughts can be rather perplexing, and i don't know for sure what truly triggers the best of them, other than, paradoxically speaking, the casual despair, the occasional challenge or the prolonged discontent...i don't know!!
Someone once said "happiness is only real when shared" i would say " happiness is only impeded when waited to be shared"
Two weeks to put those disguised destructive emotions aside,
Two weeks to get drawn to merely the best...
I HAVE Two weeks to put all this cynical probability to rest...